I was wrong about us the whole distance thing. But that’s okay. In fact, it’s great! I have been friends with Ellen for the longest time that I knew by those actuations that something was going on there. Never had I thought that it had something to do with my hasty marriage. Things had been blurry back then and I had to admit, there were just too many emotions, too many expectations plus the reality that there is no turning back for me, not a chance. Too many decisions and all I had was faith – faith that things will turn out right, faith that I was letting myself into the right situation, faith in the opportunities that was up for grabs, faith in events that were beyond my control, faith in people’s wider perspective of things. It was one of the most troublesome times in my life. And knowing me, not all too comfortable with having someone to share my burden, I took it all in not knowing that I was depriving others of the chance to really prove their friendship with me.
There will be more trying times for us, more issues to settle, more hang-ups to let go. But I hope, that this time, when we deal with them, we will do it together. As friends should.