I feel your pain. I have been disappointed for quite sometime now. But despite the restless thoughts, I am still here, and I guess that is the bigger disappointment.
What with not knowing what is expected of you until you are told that you failed
What with getting reprimanded for the indecisions of others.
What with the constant drive of making things better and still feel inadequate at the end of the day.
What with being weighed, measured and still found wanting
What with the lack of affirmation for the four jobs well done but obsession over that one mistake
What with putting up a brave face despite the crushed spirit.
It’s not a hopeless case but a deplorable condition.